Band Practice

The provocation of friendship

Is a hard, tough do

But a necessary accounting

Of my life in You

 

Abounding grace and mercy

In our meeting of the heart

Love surrounds and ne’er is fleeting

When all are anchored only in You

 

So we all band together

And share our woes and gains

We meet for God’ glory only

And win more souls for You.

 

Judgeth {thee} not …

You left me in that moment

Though you didn’t move an inch

Eyes glazed over

Ears stuffed shut

 

Judging me in your presence

Watching my words, not soul

My heart shattered

My mouth closed

 

Fragile life hung in balance

Do I take on board your hate?

My soul cried out

The helper salved me

 

Late {honey}

Gosh you’re late, hun,

I wonder where you are?

You left work four hours ago,

I am curious as to what you’re at.

 

If it was the first time

Or even the fifth or sixth

My mind would not be wandering

But fixed on missing you, alone.

 

Blonde hair on your jacket shoulder

Long and fine through bleach

Oh gosh I wish I’d not seen

And sit here quietly and wait.

 

but No, you had to do it

you had to break those vows

you must see how it is looking

not just looks but feels and hears.

 

Four hours though love

That’s pushing it – even for you

Wringing of hands, frowning

Fretting and weeping – for what!

 

In my mind she’s more

More than I could ever be

The sum total of all those girls

The long line who went before

 

This one is different I can feel it

Our home no longer safe

The portrait testaments on the wall

No longer barricade us in

 

Perfect smiles, tall strong backs

The children smiling wider

showing perfect teeth

They no longer pull you in

 

O husband, o husband

Where are you tonight?

The kids in their slumber

The dog asleep by the fire.

 

The door bell takes me out of my misery

Who could be calling so late

The blue flashing lights

The kind look on their faces

 

A new misery, not one of despair

I can rise above their insinuations

Ignoring assignation allusions

I am the grieving widow who can rebuild.

 

Standing {tall}

I stand tall – not in ability

Nor gifts, accomplishments – whatever

 

I stand tall – not in my past

The pain, the erroneous way

 

I stand tall in Jesus Christ

His death and resurrection

 

So I can stand as you judge

As you imagine my life as it was

 

The sinner who stood before you

Rejected by your Pharisean eyes

 

I stand because I’ve been touched

Placed here among your people

 

To show that even the amply bad

Can be saved just like you

 

As was said so long before

“I fall and yet by faith I stand,

I stand and will not let You go”

 

coming/going

Life is the pits

Snake snarls and spits

Ice cold invade mitts

My heart can’t take more hits

 

You called out – COME

I heard little hum

Unable for sum

I walking through gum

 

You shared your LOVE

I turned: Yes! shuv!

It was too tough

Grace, mercy from above

 

The fire burned bright

But couldn’t see light

Without any might

I jumped, leapt – with no sight

 

Thank you for SAVE

Took me from cave

Old life gone – raze

New life – rolling in grace

 

You called out – GO

Close to my foe

I cried out – No

My heart brimfull – woe

 

You said – remember

You said – don’t forget

You ask again – GO

Letting go of ego

{I say yes}